Great Changes Taking Place

So this is a video that I actually uploaded on May 5 that I never posted here.  I had put a timer on for some food I was cooking and also so that I had a set time in which to speak.  This was following the video I did regarding the Nepal Earthquake and there was something I had brought up in that video that I had wanted to expand upon.

I go more into what I meant when I say that we’re thinking too small regarding the challenges we’re currently facing on Earth.  How all of the things escalating are related and interconnected and not just isolated events, from the rise in health issues, violence, war, gmo foods, animal deaths, natural events, etc.

I have so much information in me and I haven’t quite pulled it all together in a cohesive way, and is kind of what is happening on the fly in these videos.  Eventually I’ll have the information more buttoned up and not quite so scattered, but I figure I have to start somewhere. 🙂

The pressure is on everything, both the Earth and Humanity and we’re being pressed into crises mode.  I don’t speak about this in the video, but you start to see what people are really made of when put under a pressure cooker like this.  There are those who are screaming and pointing and blaming everything outside of themselves, and there are those who have gone quiet and gone inward trying to resolve the issues within themselves.

It is my feeling that those who chose to go inward to fix what is wrong in themselves first, are the ones who will begin to rise and become the new leaders of tomorrow, who will know how to truly deal with the challenges we are facing.  Ones who have integrity and strength of character to do what truly needs to happen from a centered and balanced place, instead of being thrown all over the place by ego and immaturity.

It’s no longer becoming acceptable to say that the reason we do things like we do is “because that’s how it’s always been done”.  In times of great upheaval and change, it requires that we question everything we thought we knew and understood about life, and it requires that we change too.  Change is easier when everyone can recognize it for what it is and start pulling together and cooperate as a family, instead of acting like selfish and spoiled little children.

Mother Nature does not give a fuck about how fair you think it is or not.  You don’t talk back to the Momma.

 

Trying To Process Events Going On In The World As Well As In Myself

I did this video last night, but I’m just now posting it.  It’s not my favorite video.  I restarted it 3 times and had to fight throughout to not just completely give up on the video, and then it’s long on top of it.  (Jenn, you’re such a great salesperson, how could I not watch it with such a great endorsement).  I’m trying to make sense of things for myself at the moment regarding things going on both in the greater world as well as myself personally.

I say nonsensical things like, “It’s like bridge under water.”  When I’m in this ‘trying to figure it out’ phases, I say a lot of things in an effort to try and connect things to see what is really trying to be shown or said by something bigger than me.  So some of the things I say are fleeting and not necessarily *true*, but just fluffing up all of the pieces that seemed to be involved to see what goes together.  I am feeling out how things feel when saying them to distinguish whether it belongs in the equation or not.  This is a process I go through looking for the bread crumbs that relate together to show me the direction I should be going.

This is me in flux, in extreme flexibility.  I’m not actually judging people and events, I’m just feeling them out.  I hear myself constantly trying to clarify what I mean when I say anything that may suggest that I am being unfair about something I say about other people (such as coworkers) in my life.  I don’t want the things I say to be taken out of context, I don’t want to hurt other’s feelings, and no I don’t want to be unfair to other people because I’ve been on the receiving end of that far too much.  But at the same time, it totally throws off my flow about what I’m trying to say because whatever I’m saying about them isn’t the point that I’m trying to get to.

I definitely halt my expression by trying to be too sensitive about what I say about others in my life, like I don’t get to have my own perspective or opinion about how I am experiencing my own life.  I think that plays into me feeling like I don’t get to have my own feelings.  I do tend to get attacked when I try to express how situations are making me feel that involve other people.  I’m sure it’s something to do with the way I go about doing it, my presentation or perhaps the people I’ve surrounded myself with in the past.  Some people will attack me for trying to say my side, and when I get upset about it, they’ll tell me to not take it so personally . . . and then my feelings really get hurt because it seems like them attacking me for having my own feelings, was them taking it personally.

I struggled in this video by not letting myself stop it or give up and by attempting to say what I’m really feeling even if it gets misinterpreted or misunderstood and so it’s a very uncomfortable video for me and it was even harder to make myself publish it and now post it.  I did keep filtering myself and trying to be “fair” to everyone and so there’s moments where I start to break through that and just say what I’m really feeling and then moments where I go back to restricting myself or feeling ashamed of what I’m saying.  This is all really good for me.  This is further helping me get past worrying about other’s responses or reactions to me.

It helps every time I get a favorable or supportive response, because it starts to rewrite in me what usually happens when I express myself.  It will eventually reach a point where I won’t be able to say that people respond to me unfavorably because it will no longer be true for me.  While I could get to a place of not caring about what other’s say on my own, I don’t have to fight quite so hard to do it when I start receiving different responses from others than what I’m used to.  My audience tends to be very silent and for the most part I’ve come to peace with that, but I’m seeing how much better and easier it is for me to push through when someone does respond in a more supportive way such as a recent commenter, Supreet, has been doing.  He says things in a more open, Aries-like way, and not so judgmental or closed and I can’t say how much I appreciate it.  His sharing his thoughts that people normally keep to themselves, does help give me courage to keep trying.  It does help me feel like I’m less alone in my fight and struggle to find my true voice and express it without fear.

It helps me see that it’s a two way street.  I’ve always taken responsibility for all my relationships failing because I didn’t know that the other person was suppose to contribute more to the relationship.  Whenever someone starts to contribute or share from their side, I feel such a burden come off of my shoulders, like it’s not ALL up to me.  I don’t have to do all of the work for things to happen or work out.  Having that contrast from what I normally experience with others, shines such a light on what I’ve been really dealing with.  Others don’t show up for life or for their relationship with me.  They are checked out and so yes I am left alone.  It’s not all my fault.

At any rate, here’s the video, and when I get more time I’ll come back to give a couple of links for the earthquake that I spoke about in the video.

Edit to add:  Here’s a link to the video where the man walks through the town right after the earthquake has happened.

And here’s another one with the view over the rooftops.  Since then, they’ve added a lot of annoying boxes making it hard to see the actual video, but I just wanted to point to this one specifically since I spoke about it in my video.

And one more with a compilation of 3 different videos.  The 3rd video, is one where I dreamt of an identical street and thoroughfare about a year or so ago.

Compassion And The Coming Sickness

I had a series of dreams a little over a year ago that were pointing to something that would start happening down the road.  They keep coming to my awareness, so I feel like maybe now is the time to share them.  They’re fairly short, simple, and to the point.

One was people coming down with a sickness that was referred to as “Scarlet Fever”.  However, it wasn’t anything to do with the thing we already know as Scarlet Fever.  It was more to do with the color of red.  It wasn’t very pleasant to go through.  I was going from person to person who was struck with it, and comforting them.  I was letting them know that I knew how horrible it felt, but that it doesn’t last long.  Just endure it a short time, and then it will be over.

In another dream I had walked into a remote temple (I want to say Buddhist?).  It was very ancient.  It was dedicated to Quan Yin.  I was inside and had walked up to the main statue of Quan Yin.  All around me, people were falling sick and throwing up.  In that dream it was made clear to me, that Compassion was the key to surviving and getting through this illness.  Opening your heart.

In the final dream, I was at work.  Everyone had been getting steadily weaker and ill, and yet still tried to continue everything as if nothing was going on.  People were laying down all over the place from weakness and sickness.  I was so frustrated that everyone was so much more focused on keeping business going as usual instead of taking care of themselves.  That they were missing the point to change and start leaning towards focusing on what is truly important in life instead of continuing to focus on things that really don’t matter.

In summary, the illness and sickness stems from Spirit.  Yes, it comes in the form of things like flu/colds and whatever other countless things we want to call it . . . but the purpose or point is a kind of purification.  The more you try to hold onto things that aren’t real or true in the heart/spiritual nature, the more ill you are going to become.

Not as punishment, but because it’s time to let go of the untruths and illusions that we hold onto.  You can do it consciously, or you can let the sickness do it for you.  In either case, it is important that you go inward and reconnect to your heart and to what you know is true and real there.

Quan Yin 1

 

A Little Disclosure

Have you been feeling dizzy, disoriented, foggy-brained, confused, worsening memory, vertigo, congestion, sometimes sick to your stomach?  Have you been feeling more and more tired, lethargic, increasing irritability, anger, frustration?  Do you go through periods where you feel like you’re “de-toxing” and trying to clear something out of your system, and for those tuned into your body. . . have your kidneys (sides, & back) been giving you more and more problems? Do you have increased anxiety, apathy, possibly even depression?

Have you had increasingly strange dreams or nightmares?  A sense of *something* going on, but you don’t know what?

Have you wondered why all the sinkholes, large booms, strange sounds heard around the world?  Why the seasons are all mixed up, and why it’s cold one day and warm another?  Why the trees  bloom at the wrong times, and then shortly afterwards. . . the leaves begin to dry up and some even turn a reddish color?

Why the birds migratory patterns are all off.  Why the weather becomes increasingly erratic and extreme?  Electronics misbehaving?  Why more and more people seem to be losing their minds, and an increase in suicide and suicide attempts?  Riots and protests?  Volcanoes, earthquakes, hurricanes, tornadoes, flooding. . . Mass animal deaths.  Did I mention Illnesses?

Increased UFO sightings.  Meteorites.  Landslides.  Bridges and overpasses collapsing.  Trains derailing.  Winds blowing globally.  Strange clouds.  Geomagnetic storms for no known reason (with no solar flares with resulting CMEs or solar winds from a coronal hole).

And, it’s not just Earth experiencing great changes and upheavals. . . so are the other planets in our solar system.

Before I continue with what I feel is happening.  Let me give you some more idea of where I’m coming from.

My whole life, I’ve had dreams and visions.  Increasingly lucid over the years.  Many years were spent deciphering and distinguishing the subtle energies of them.  The discipline I put into that, carried over into my waking life.  It had to, because there were times many years ago when I had a difficult time distinguishing between awake and sleep.  Did it make me feel crazy? Yes.  Did I let that stop me from understanding it? Not at all.

I watched, observed, took notes, contemplated, gathered more information.  I suspended judgment until a clearer picture began to form.  This is how I’ve learned and grown over the years, and how I’ve overcome the many pitfalls of being super sensitive.  A very scientific approach. . . except, unlike many scientists of today, I didn’t dismiss findings that didn’t fit my current world view.  I allowed for things I didn’t know or understand to make their way into my awareness.

In my waking life, I did the same thing I did with my dreams.  I observed, took notes, researched, etc.  I often stare at the sky.  I sit for hours watching the trees in deep communion.  Watching and listening to the birds and other critters.  Always looking for patterns, cycles, insight.  I’ve only ever spent this life trying to understand it.

In the last couple of years, the two worlds within me began to merge.  The world of spirit and dreams and the waking, real life world.  My time has been spent on weaving the connection between these two worlds and how they interface with each other.  I now see the spirit that runs through and connects everything, as well as the actions/reactions that it causes in our physical waking world.  I am now consciously aware of both worlds at all times.

There’s much more to it than that.  But, hopefully this gives you better context of how I operate and where the things I say come from.

When spiritually inclined people say, “We are all one”, I feel it’s a little bit misunderstood.  I see it more as, “We are all connected”.  We are individuals who connect to make a whole.

But to get back on topic. . . the things that have been happening increasingly in our world.  If you look at just isolated events, it doesn’t make much sense.  But take all of those events in as a whole, and you start to see a bigger picture emerge.  Same concept. . . individual cells making up a bigger body.  (The macro and micro. . . as above, so below. . . this concept repeats itself over and over.)

All of the things we are witnessing today, are connected to a bigger story.  If you don’t know how something is connected. . . you are simply missing pieces of the puzzle that help connect one thing to another.

My understanding of what’s going on is continually updating as I gather additional information.  It’s a very fluid and dynamic ongoing thing.  But I do feel that I have enough pieces to understand the emerging picture, and as of last night, it started feeling for the first time in my life, that it was time to start sharing what I’m seeing.

What I’m currently seeing, is that we’re fast approaching a pole shift that is being brought on by a body or object moving through our solar system.  I don’t know what it is, and I don’t know when.  But I feel strongly enough about it, that I’m willing to put myself out there and be ridiculed and thought crazy.

I don’t take what I’m saying lightly.

Many, many, many myths & legends, religions, etc. speak of things that we’re seeing right now.  And I don’t feel it’s necessarily because they were trying to be prophetic, but because they were describing something they lived through themselves and that it was something that was cyclical and they were trying to pass the information on to future generations as best as they could.

I do not believe it’s about punishment.  I don’t think any of us need to be beating ourselves up for not having been “better” people to have prevented this from happening.  As I wrote about in another post about facing and embracing your shadows, I feel that idea applies here as well.

In older traditions, the ones who had to walk the path through trials and darkness, were the initiates.  The shamans.  The ones who walked between the worlds.  Humanity, as a group of individuals, are all being pushed onto this path during this time.  The difference is, in the past, the initiates had to walk the path alone.  As a group, we can choose to walk it together.  But first, we have to admit to ourselves that we’re on it.

Many, many tough things are brought to the surface when faced by global calamity.  What happens after death?  What is real and what isn’t?  What really matters?  Am I at peace with myself and my life, and if not. . . how do I get there?  Do I let people know that I love them?  Am I kind to myself?  Am I kind to others?

The point of being on this path, isn’t to try and *beat* death.  It’s to get real.  To become who you really are underneath all the trivial things we’ve used to cover up.  To get in touch with what you really feel, and what you value.  To become aware of the spiritual, or eternal part of yourself.

That’s why I emphasize feelings and heart at this time, because it becomes your new anchor during times of upheaval and unsureness.  If you only believe in the physical world and only what your 5 senses tell you. . . this time we are living in is going to be one that drives you to madness.  Your heart and feelings are your inner guidance that you need to use to navigate these times.  It is not the time to hide behind lies and bullshit.

And when you find the courage to open your heart and to your own truth inside of you, you will also. . . in your own way, feel peace and connection to others.  And you’ll know that death is not the end by any means.  We are, and always will be connected to each other.  We will always see each other again.  We are never truly alone.

From this space, you will know with sureness of what you need to do.  Whether you are someone who needs to stock up on things, or go to the mountains (and not from a sheer animalistic instinct to survive, but because you are meant to be one who survives and carries on), or if you should just be spending this time making amends and living true and helping others who are going to become increasingly scared.

For myself, I do not feel a need to do anything other than what I’m doing.  And that is to communicate out to others what I know.  My dreams, visions, and inner guidance have not pointed towards me putting forth effort to try and survive.  Not that I won’t, but that my path is more towards communicating and comforting.  I know when the time comes, I will be connected, and I will know exactly what I need to do.

We each have our roles.  Each individual doesn’t need to be able to do everything.  Just what they are meant to do.  And that also means that we will need each other.  I will never be someone who is good at storing food goods and the logistics of that type of thing. . . but I am able to see the signs, give guidance, and help lead.   So my survival may depend on the kindness of others who are good at the logistics of lodging and food, etc.  Do you see what I mean?

Individuals within a collective.  If we’re focused on sheer survival and this is mine and I will shoot you if you get close. . . then we will all suffer.  But if we’re at peace within ourselves and whatever happens. . . then we become capable of holding the space and joining together our resources and the special talents and skills that we each bring to the table.

The All affects the One, and the One affects the All.

Take this information, and do with it what you like.  Take it or leave it, it’s okay with me.  I’m not looking for support or for others to agree with me.  I am just following my own inner guidance to share for better or for worse.

I will most likely continue sharing things from here on out.  It feels like it’s a part of a role I agreed to.  It comes from my heart, and not for gain.

Take good care of yourselves and each other.

Furreals.

Earthquakes, sinkholes, meteorites, political madness, taxes, downward spiral of the economy, unemployment, crop failures, tornadoes, hurricanes, volcanoes, landslides, dying trees, solar flares, unpredictable weather, animal die-offs, shifting magnetic field, radiation poisoning, warfare, nukes, people losing their minds, the cost of oil, stock markets, gun control, religious fervor, terrorism, ufo sightings. . .

I don’t know about you, but I’m all apocalypsed out.

And I hope you can forgive me, but I’m having a *moment*.

I’m just sick of it.  And I’m not talking about the chaos.  The chaos, I get.  But, what I *don’t* get, is how in the f#!ck do we all manage to keep going business as usual, as if nothing is happening.  How is that happening?!

I’m going to let you in on a little secret.  Something is going on.  Something on a global level.  AND.  We are not being told the truth about what it is.  You have to be feeling it by now.  I know I’m hyper-sensitive and all, but please tell me that you’re at least aware at some level that something is going on?

If you only believe what your 5 senses tell you, then you are going to continue to be more and more in the dark about the true nature of what is happening around us.  This is a great time to start getting comfortable and warm and fuzzy with your feelings, and get plugged back into your heart.  The only place that you’re going to find out the truth of what is happening, is by listening to your own inner guidance.  Because I can tell you right now, the amount of garbage information being spewed out in the world at the moment is only going to confuse the hell out of you.

And it’s also a great time to figure out what is truly, TRULY important to you, and start LIVING by those values.  Don’t just talk about what is important to you.  Live it.  Be bold.  Change.  Find the courage in yourself to be someone you can be proud of.

If you currently feel that something out “there” in the world is going to help fill that feeling of un-satisfaction in you, or heal your broken heart, or make you feel more complete, you are sadly mistaken.  And you are running out of time to change it.

Getting that promotion at work isn’t going to do it.  Making more money isn’t going to do it.  Even being able to pay your bills isn’t going to do it.  It isn’t about achieving or obtaining anything, it is a state of mind.  I’ve been homeless and starving as a single mom… more than once.  And yes, it was great to get some food… that totally helped… but even after having enough money to rent an apartment and put food in my shelves… it did not make me feel better about life or myself.  It did raise my spirits, yes.  But the hurt in me, that put me in an emotional place that resulted in me becoming homeless and starving, was still there even after I had a place to live and food to eat.

What is missing and what you are looking for is your heart and your soul.  You will not find that in a can of soup, let me tell ya.

Quit kidding yourselves.  It is time to wake the fuck up.

Of all of the stuff happening in the world right now, which will only continue to escalate. . . how much control do you have over it?  Can you single-handedly stop it?  Probably not.  Ok, then what scares you the most about it (and if you’re not feeling at least some concern, you might want to check your pulse).

What seems to be people’s main focus when faced with all of this, is death.  Either of themselves or of their loved ones.  Or of people trying to take their stuff or not having enough stuff to survive.  Or being helpless or hopeless to do anything at all.

You need to remember yourselves.  You need to remember what’s truly, truly important.  What can you take with you when you die?  Can you take your job title?  Your bank account?  Your house?  Your clothes?  If you can’t take it with you when you die. . . then it is of no lasting importance.

When you are in touch with yourself, your feelings, your heart, your soul – then you begin to lose your fear – because you begin to understand and feel, for yourself, that you are eternal.  Your consciousness does not die when you do.  There is much, much more to existence than this plane.  There *is* life after we leave here.  And there is contact between the two places.  But you have to be in touch with the part of yourself that you have been hiding or denying all this time.  Your loved ones that have gone before you, are still alive.  You *will* see them again.

When you start to remember, and feel it fully within your body, that you do not blink out of existence at the end of this life – then you begin to lose fear of what is happening in the world.  You begin to find your center and the peace within, even as chaos swirls around you. . . because you know that you and everyone you love. . . is forever.  This?  All of this on Earth?  It is but a temporary part of our existence.

And at the end of this life, whenever that may be, I can promise you. . . that you aren’t going to care about 90% of the stuff that has your panties in a bunch right now.  Being on time to meetings, spending that extra hour or two at work, having a big title, a full bank account. . . those things aren’t even going to register.  But living in your heart, being kind and open, being forgiving of yourself and others, slowing down to appreciate what is beautiful. . .THOSE are the things that will fill you with satisfaction at a life well lived.

I’m not saying that we’re all going to die suddenly.  I’m not saying that we aren’t.  I’m saying, it’s time to know what is really important in our lives and start living from there regardless of what happens, because that is the only place you’re going to be finding stable ground and sanity in the coming months and years.  And it takes time, practice, and patience to figure out what that means to a person and to put it into practice.

The more people that do it, the easier it is for others to do the same.  A ripple effect.

You don’t have to rip your world apart or quit your job.  It can be as simple as making different decisions on how you use your time.  Learn to say no.  Learn to ask for help.  Be honest with yourself.  Pay attention to your emotions.  If you respond in a strong emotion like  anger, it doesn’t mean that there’s something wrong with *you*, it means that *something* is wrong and needs your attention.  Our emotions are like a thermometer of what’s going on with us behind the scenes, but they are not our identity.  Don’t be afraid to go in there and find out what the problem is under the hood when the maintenance light comes on, just don’t think that the maintenance light *is* you.

Love and feel warmth.

Feel through the illusion of this world, and live from where it’s real.

Giving the "I know you aren't trying to sneak a picture of me" look