I really needed that temper tantrum. I needed to feel my fire once again. Fire is a purifier. It challenges. It tests. Trial by fire.
I then know where and how I’ve gone astray from my Self by what is hurting and burning in me in the aftermath. It allows me the opportunity to become aware of it and face it, because only what is false will hurt and burn.
It makes it easier for me to see what is True and what’s okay to let go of. I remember that I have nothing to truly be afraid of because what is Real and True cannot be destroyed or harmed ever.
Beyond this physical realm, beyond what our physical eyes can see, resides the True Form of everything you can see here (and even things that are not here . . . yet). The more we’re in alignment with it, the more visible and real it becomes to us. The more out of alignment we are with it, the more distant it becomes.
The longer we go out of alignment with it, the harder it becomes to believe in it’s existence. It becomes stories passed down through time. Stuff of myth and legend. Fairytales.
The less we believe as individuals, the less we start to believe as a whole and the more disconnected and out of balance with nature we become.
All pain, hurt, suffering, diseases, and sickness stems from being out of alignment with our True Forms.
It comes from believing more in what is Not True than in the True Forms.
These True Forms, when struck or expressed, hum out in a single unique vibration. It is the signature or “name” for that being. It is how all other beings know it separately from all other beings.
At this level, the energetic signature that it vibrates and hums and expresses in unlimited ways, is not subjective. It is recognized as it actually is by all, and not skewed by false perceptions. There is nothing that anyone can say or do that will stop or change the True Forms from being what they are. Nothing.
Not even our disbelief in them. All that happens when we stop believing in them, is that we forget them. (Not the other way around.) We increase the distance between where we are and where we want to go. We are all in various degrees of remembering and forgetting these True Forms.
That is where my allegiance is. That is where I aim my Sagittarius Arrow and shoot towards.
When I become aware of parts of my True Form while in my current life, it is a non-negotiable, non-debatable part of me. While yes, many people here may have any number of opinions about what they personally think about those parts of me, unless it matches the Truth of my True Form, their opinions and/or feelings are wrong.
Your Truth is universally recognized by all other Truths. It is not a case of you are in Your Truth, but George over there in His Truth looks over at Your Truth and says, “Nah.”
My loved ones tend to scuba dive in their False Forms. They can become so disconnected from their True Forms, they forget that their current False Form isn’t who they really are. They become so filled with fear they close down and cut off or turn away from their connection to their Soul. When you become anxiety-ridden and afraid, you tense your body immensely and it doesn’t allow the flow of energy from spirit to move through you and to nourish you.
We all do this at some point and to some degree. But some choose to actively work through it (or healing), and some choose to call it home and live in it their whole life.
When you are closed down like this, you are not in touch with your own true feelings. It’s not possible. You have to be open and receptive with warmth and trust in life in order to feel your own true feelings. You have to do a lot of digging and soul searching with brutal honesty and endless forgiveness of yourself and others as you move through your pain. There has to be a softness and compassion and understanding for not just yourself but others outside of you as well. A wider perspective of life and your places in it.
Being emotional, including crying, does not mean that you are in touch with your own true feelings. Many things are habitual or conditioned learning. We all carry the burdens and sins of our ancestors with us that we have to break through to get beyond them and reach our own true feelings. So many things that we think are our feelings, are False Forms. They are not from our True Forms, and that causes us pain and sorrow in life for as long as we insist on believing them to be True.
Some people mistake their thoughts and opinions as being feelings. They live in their heads and are completely out of touch with their bodies and believe their own thoughts about feelings to be their actual feelings. This can often times stem from trauma and trying to flee or escape their bodies and can’t quite get all of the way out through the crown chakra and so they stay in the head area near the doorway so they can flee at a moments notice when things get too real.
However, what happens is that they’re never present (full of fire) within themselves and their physical body doesn’t trust them to be there for it when it needs them and so it goes into a perpetual ‘fight or flight or freeze’ stance and becomes anxiety ridden amongst many other health issues. If they can learn to not be so scared of life and actually start to allow their presence into the rest of their body, relax and move out of a place of fear, they would find that it’s much, much more comfy and warm and anxiety free. But my point being, those thoughts about thoughts are not their own true feelings.
Fear is a pretty motivated force. It can blow things way out of proportion. It absolutely blinds you and seems to work against you in seeing your own True Form. It also likes to pretend that it’s not there. It shows itself in other ways such as always being on guard, being defensive, being too quiet and small and never raising your voice, aggression, illness, laziness, apathy . . . on and on I could go. I think the most damaging thing about Fear, is how it makes you believe that it is absolutely True. And that is a Lie. That is the Great Deception that we have all fallen for.
When you are standing in your True Form it is easier to recognize when others are standing in their True Form and when they’re not. When you are not standing in your own Truth, it’s much harder to know the difference.
It takes great strength and courage to stand in your Truth by yourself, especially around those you love. I so easily want to cave in on myself and go along with their Non-Truth just so that I don’t have to be alone, but I always pay a high price for it and it’s not worth it anymore.
So my recent post was to establish for myself that I do get to stay in that place of love. That I have the strength and will to stand alone in my love for myself and them even if they have forgotten themselves. I don’t have to listen to their Fear or Falseness or let it influence me. I don’t even have to let them into my life. I don’t have to go through life feeling guilty or ashamed for being a terrible daughter or mother when there’s nothing more I can do about it on my end. In that I get a choice.
