In Love With Life Itself

I’m kind of digging the current energy.  Or maybe it’s just the new music I downloaded.

Or probably because my fiancée has come in from The Netherlands for a few months, and I’m in hog heaven.

Isn’t it interesting how when you’re in the throes of being in love the world glows beautiful and you sing right through the irritations of life, with a shoulder shrug and raised eyebrows of compassionate understanding?

Or maybe that’s just me.

But I have wondered how my  whole world can change from a feeling.  What is going on when you first fall in love, that isn’t going on during the rest of your life?  Are we only meant to have those few brief encounters during life where we open up to life so much that we connect into the feeling of Divinity?

Because to me . . . it feels how I think Life *should* feel.  I feel it should be the Rule, not the exception.

I tried it as an experiment once.  Back when I was still single. . . and had been for quite some time. . . I wanted to know if I could induce that feeling of first being in love.  I guess it could be called method acting for my own role in Life.  I recalled the times I had felt that kind of love, and enveloped myself into those feelings.

It was a little tricky at first, because usually there is a person who is the focus of your affections and who sends you into those great feelings that light up your whole world.  I didn’t have that, so I had to get creative.  I decided to try being in love with myself in that way.  Like I had just rocked my own world.  : D  (Ha!)

It felt a little awkward, and I think I would’ve died a million deaths from embarrassment had anyone found out what I was doing at the time.  I put my stubbornness, curiosity, and will power to good use.  I closed my eyes and went into my imagination and spun a world of pretend so elaborate and real, I would’ve made my Kindergarten teacher proud.

First, I pretended that it wasn’t weird that I was doing it in the first place.  Kind of like starting with a clean state.  And then I pretended that, even though I didn’t know the details of this exciting moment in my life, I had just met the most wonderful person in my life.  They made my heart flutter.  Being with this person made everything feel okay.  I was able to be completely myself and this person thought it was AWESOME.

After an embarrassingly long time of this part of the pretend, I moved the focus into the exciting discovery, that this amazing person. . . was Me!  Yay!  Who knew?!

And then I felt the *pulse* in my heart.  I felt the skip that the heart skips when your beloved comes to mind.  I had a moment of teary-eyed wonderment of being In Love.  I felt my being open up, like I was unfolding wings to take flight.  My perception of the world widened from it’s tight focus inside of me, to encompassing the entire World.

It was marvelous.

As soon as I knew it was even possible to experience this while still single, I was sent into a frenzy of possibilities.  I was pretty sure I had stumbled across the Fountain of Youth.

Something magical happened, when I tried to sustain it for longer and longer periods of time.  A shift happened, that went from focusing on me being in love with me. . . to me being in Love with Life.  That very same feeling of first being love. . . except it was with everything surrounding me.  Where ever I walked, whatever I was doing, I felt incredible love and appreciation for all of it.

The highs in life, the lows, it was all beautiful.  Everyone in my view was beautiful, both in their sorrow and in their happiness and everything in-between.  I wished the best for everyone I passed on the street.  I could feel the eternal song I feel coming from my heart, flowing outwards to everything in my world.

I felt strong enough to handle anything.  I felt protected and loved.  I felt like everything was going to be just fine for all of us, no matter what happens.  I felt such love and understanding for everyone’s struggle in life, and even proud of all of us for continuing on despite the challenges and heartbreak we’ve all experienced at one time or another.

So many strong and beautiful people everywhere I looked.  I wanted to sing out loud, a heartfelt song to each and every person. . . letting them know that they aren’t alone. . . that it’s all going to be okay. . . that they are loved. . . that they are so beautiful in the eyes of the Divine.

The current energy feels very supportive of this way of being.  If I allow it to settle deep into me, I feel so sentimental, supportive, loving, nurturing, understanding.  I feel open joy at being in this world with you guys, and experiencing all the crazy things we get to experience together.  And later, after it’s all done. . . . we’ll think back on these times and laugh and laugh and laugh. . . whew!  {Big Deep Sigh} Good times, good times.

Multi colored sky

Comments

  1. Sweet Jenn,

    So wonderfully written!

    You definitely do not have to be in a relationship to feel and experience what you describe.
    I have many those times or periods that I feel that, its such a deep and profound way of living.
    of being. And all of life is reflected in that. I am in LOVE with this Divine Life and light within Me and within all. So marvelously so. ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

    Of course another person can be a wonderful reflection of that Love. They mirror back at you. which open the door to it. However its not necessary to be in it through another person. You just have to recognize that it is the Divine Light, The Divine Love you see in all. if you look through all the so called negative thought forms and conditionings. its always here and Now.
    its never really gone. I AM that LOVE reflected back at me through the forms of all that is life. so divinely Loved.
    I am IN LOVE with the BELOVED!

    Much LOVE ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤
    Mirjam/Sunshine

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