I Know That I’m Not Always There

This came from a place in me that was deeply wishing to tell so many people who I have met and known, how much they mean to me still.  I’ve never really been someone who stays in touch with others once life takes us in different directions.  I know how it can appear to others, and I tried to change it. But I couldn’t, no matter how hard I tried.

“Am I just heartless? . . . Am I running? . . . Why am I like this?”

The answer for me, is that I still feel them with me no matter where my journey takes me.  All I have to do is think of them, and there they appear within my heart and it’s like we never parted ways.  I can literally feel their presence.  I can feel all kinds of communication going on between me and them.  Funny times we shared together, hopes, dreams, troubles, struggles…

It’s not that I no longer care about people once we’ve parted ways. . . nothing could be further from the truth.  But I know. . . I feel in a very real way, how we are always connected.  And I know and respect how we each have our path to follow, and that it may mean coming and going out of each other’s lives in order to fulfill that path. . . but we are never, ever. . . not even in death, actually apart from each other.

There are so many more ways to be in touch with each other than we’ve even begun to imagine.  So, maybe another way for me to look at it is, it’s not that I don’t contact people from my past who have gone in different directions. . . it’s just that it is in ways not yet recognized.  But until that day comes, I’d like you to know that:

I know that I’m not always there

I know that I’m not always there

And I seem to just come and go

But in my heart is a constant song singing

Of the love I feel for everyone I’ve known